And along with that, i recieved a lot of messages from people who are ready to support me no matter what. That i can create new stuff without worrying of the time and just making it whenever i want. When i heard that early access is no longer an option for me i was upset, and at the same time i felt unusually free.
Update: since EA made some changes about their policy and early access is still allowed, i’m thinking on coming back to it, but not right now.